I'm home with cramps. =[

so.
i decided i'm just doing a fat bleach job on my hair.

half of my pink grew out so I have these gynormous roots so I'm bleaching those twice today w/ toner and hopefully they'll be light enough to throw some pink dye on.

And I think I'm gonna fix up my bangs cuz I bleached the parted part not at an angle *guess your supposed to* then dying that blue.


yay.

But like a wave,  it pulls me away.
Far from you, and I wait.

I wait until the wind pushes me back to you.
But like the waves, pulling me from the shore.

Struggling I tell myself.

The wind will bring me back.
The wind will bring me back.
The wind will bring me back to you.
They always do.

I saw him and followed him. I went up to him, smiled and grabbed his hand. We walked down the streets, pigeons flying and pecking at the ground, and sad clouds above. He stopped to take a look over there

and I thought to myself as I watched him. You're the most beautiful thing I've seen.  

I want a girlfriend. I want to have sleepovers with her, go to movies with her. Hold her hand. be with her. kiss her.

I've debated over a really long time whether I was bisexual or not, and I never really come out and admit it ( I have some homophobic friends.. plus I have a boyfriend) or I do admit it, but then take it back.
And I never really want to come out because I haven't really met any bisexuals that I even like. so it's like 'why do it?' ya know?

but like recently, with talking about it with my boyfriend, I think I really am. 

I mean, why would I think about it so much if I wasn't? 

Luke said I can have a girlfriend and be with him as long as he gets to fuck her too.
eh. it's something to keep in mind.

Lately, Idk. having a boyfriend has been feeling so...bland.

No one I know, knows I have a livejournal. so it's nice

When people get overly excited about something.

I guess I'm just too chill for the world. 

I mean, I get excited about things too, rarely overly excited. 
But It just gets sooo under my skin when I hear people jumping for joy over something.

I have no pictures for proof...
but I cut the majority of my hair off =]
I got an aline cut and I love it =]

I still have the pink in front =]

I'm really happy with it. And in the back I spike it and god I feel so much sexier with short hair =P
Idk why but I do =P

& then when my hair's wet from like swimming my hair looks good and it's not all disgusting and clinging down my back and shoulders.

Basically, I feel hella hot right now. 
I'm enjoying my new look ;D
So is luke ;)

I haven't written in forever.

Life's been really good.
I had my spring break, that was really fun. I hung out with my boyfriend like the entire time.
It's strange to have met like The one. 

I've only been with him for 7 months, but I've felt the same way I feel about him now since the first. He's probably the coolest person I've ever met. He's definitely my best friend. 

& I know he's the one. I just don't see myself with anyone else =]



SO school's boring. god 10 more weeks and SUMMER! gotta get my license..and a job.
I'm gonna be so pissed If I have to like. have a natural hair color in order to have a job.
I love my hair =[
it makes me so happy to see pink and rainbow all the time =P 
I got 6 more bottles of hair dye...I don't even know what to do with it now lol
I'm probably going to bleach more hair...
just sooo much color.

Prom's tomorrow at my school. I'm not going...
It's my junior prom & yeah I regret it. but the only thing I really regret is not getting to get ready for it.
I like dress shopping & shoe shopping and getting all pretty for an occassion.
My boyfriend doesn't dance though...and I didn't want to drag him to something he didn't want to go.
I was gonna go with a friend, but then she found a date.
whatever. 
Luke's (my boyfriend) gonna spend prom night with me anyways =]
We're going to go to the book store and get some painting books for me =]

I love that we support each other. :)

Man I'm bored. and tired.
I need new bras. My boobs grew. I hate when one outgrows the other... 
::btw. i'm a pretty open person::

bras cost money though =[
And support for my boobs apparently isn't worth spending 30 dollars to my mom ='[ 

It's my dad's birthday today. I printed out all these lol cats and demotivational posters and put them in his card I made.
I think he'll lawl...I sure did.
'sense. this makes none'

I think my dad might let me get a tattoo. I told him how I thought it was reasonable that they let me get a small one & he said 'yeahh I mean, I actually try to encourage you to not look so cliche. all those other girls look the same'
He's a pretty awesome father.

If I was to get a tat. I'd get a fire flower and a mushroom on my inner wrists. I think that'd be pretty sick.
I can't wait till i'm 18.

peace<3
p.s. anyone heard some good metal lately?
I picked up on some As blood runs black...suicide silence..annotations of an autopsy (great EP I think..)
I need new stuff though =[